LOOKING FOR LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES. PART II

Last week I told my dad and brother about the thing I was nominated for through a text chat, because a joy shared is doubled...right? 

My brother acknowledged what I had said and then he and my dad immediately got into a conversation with each other around the logistics of travel in May and time off from work. No congratulations given. Just self-centered and self-absorbed chatter focused on who messed up the travel dates, the fact that 'a question indicates uncertainty,' and the denial of facts, and screenshots to prove it. My heart sank. I don't ask a lot of my family. I hardly ever share good news for this very reason.

Last week I also told some people in my division about this very same thing I was nominated for. They were happy for me. I even told the division head (DH), and then mumbled something about not knowing what to say in my speech. He said, 'just be you.' I took that to mean, 'we know you, we like you, we are confident you will be able to do this thing.'

That night I had a dream that I was sitting next to the DH. He was looking at me as I was pretending to sleep. Pretending to sleep in the way that little kids pretend to sleep when they want their parents to carry them from the car to the house after being out late. My arm was resting next to him and I felt safe. 

Again, why am I getting the love that I needed from my family, from people at work?